For nearly four years, my husband, Jason, and I tried to have a baby.
\nEvery negative test broke me a little more.
\nJason already had a son with his ex, Olivia, which made me assume the problem had to be me.
\nEventually, a friend recommended a fertility clinic.
\nI booked an appointment without telling Jason because I didn\u2019t want to get his hopes up again.
\nAfter my consultation, I walked into the lobby and stopped cold.
\nJason was sitting beside Olivia.
\nShe was visibly pregnant.
\nThen he hugged her and whispered, \u201cShe can\u2019t find out. I told her I\u2019m working late.\u201d
\nI felt sick.
\nBefore I could confront them, a nurse appeared.
\n\u201cJason Miller?\u201d<\/p>\n
Both of them stood.
\nSo did I.
\nJason\u2019s face went white when he saw me.
\nThat\u2019s when the truth finally came out.
\nMonths earlier, Jason had secretly undergone testing.
\nHis results showed that his chances of fathering another child naturally were extremely low.
\nOlivia\u2019s baby wasn\u2019t his.
\nShe was acting as a surrogate for Jason\u2019s sister, who had struggled with infertility for years.
\nJason had been helping coordinate appointments because his sister wanted to announce the pregnancy herself.
\nBut that wasn\u2019t what hurt.
\nJason had also hidden his own fertility results because he couldn\u2019t admit that our struggle might involve him too.
\nI wasn\u2019t angry about Olivia.
\nI was angry that I had spent years blaming myself while my husband already knew the truth.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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